Is That Person Missing You?

Dream on. She never will.

Pain

Pain is when…

…the one you got your hopes up for dumps you.

…the one you think that will alleviate your sadness is the one who’ll actually PERPETUATE your suffering.*

…the one that acts like an aspirin tablet is actually a capsule of living hell.

…the one you think is a friend you can lean to is actually unreliable.

…the one whom you want to accept you rejects you.

I can’t think of any more painful things. But one thing is for sure. pain is well, painful. Life is full of them, a-drifting around, waiting to strike.

The only things one you do is to steel your nerves and prepare yourself to bear it.


* If you, The Wolf, is reading this: not that I want to quit, but I just want to see some change.

RE: Response (Updated)

It definitely wasn’t YOU.

But in this lonesome world, she still knows your presence — only that she not thinking of romance right now.

She’ll never let you weep, for you are not the one she intends to weep.

It’s not YOU she’s thinking of. It’s a pack of cards and a couple of class cards.

RE: Response

No, it wasn’t YOU.

So in this lonesome world, she might not know your presence. 

So you’ll never know if you’ll weep since you can’t read what she’s been preparing.

It’s not YOU she’s thinking of. YOU’re just an attention-seeking whore.

Response

Yes, I wish it’s ME.

So I’ll know that you acknowledge my existence in this lonesome world.

I don’t care if that thing you’re preparing for will make me weep.

Just let ME be the one you’re thinking of.

When You Cross The Line

I am not a fan of teleseryes, but when I can’t avoid it (like when you could do nothing else) I watch. GMA 7 has one before their news broadcast at 6:30, called First Time. It deals about the issues teenagers face at school, home and especially, when they fall (assuming for the first time) in love.

When I first seen that show, I was irked by how much close to what adults do when they act, especially when they are showing how they like Cyndi (or Cindy, I don’t know), the female lead character. They meaning her two best friends, Baste and Lukas. They say very dramatic things, things I think most teens can’t say (maybe, but if you think otherwise, let me know). Regarding Baste, I can relate to what he feels because well, I experienced what he experienced: being cut off in a friendship when your true feelings about your (female) friend are let out.

Now, going to what the title means. It was one boring evening when I watched the scene where Valerie (Cyndi’s relative and teacher at her school) was asked by Baste where Cyndi is. The following is NOT their exact dialogue, but still, contains what this post’s title means.

V: (after being asked) Sa tingin mo ba maibabalik mo ulit ang pagkakaibigan ninyo matapos niyang malaman na gusto mo siya?

G: Gagawin ko po ang lahat, maipakita kay Cyndi na maaari pa rin magpatuloy ang pagkakaibigan kahit mahal ko siya.

after a few more lines…

V: Baste, badtrip sa iyo si Cyndi dahil sa tingin niya ay inaabuso mo ang pagkakaibigan ninyo para makalapit sa kanya.

That’s it! When you’re in a male-female friendship, and you’ve crossed the line between friendship and love (which is quite thin at this kind), the one you love (or like, for that matter) feels that you are just being friends with that person so as to make advances towards him or her. So as to get closer and by that, you are already ‘courting’ that person without even asking for permission.

That few boring moments of that evening answered the question that has bothered me throughout my high school days: why she cut off the line of friendship between us when, well, I did what Baste did.

Well, thank you, television.

Question Answered (2)

Was your last dream in technicolor or shades of grey?

More on gray. But there were some bits of color too.

Ask me anything. Basta matino, sasagutin ko.

Question Answered

If you could, would you rather jump back two years as a “do-over”, or jump ahead two years for a fresh start? Why?

Neither. I’m tired about the past. I also do not want to jump ahead two years since I’ll never experience good and wonderful things that happened in the two years I skipped.

So living the tomorrow’s future a day at a time I guess much, much better. =]

P.S. I might never know what will happen to The Wolf.

Ask me anything. Basta matino, sasagutin ko.

Q’s and A’s

Note: This post contains a certain amount of adult content. Reader discretion is advised. And oh, I would like to thank Mr. K. P. Franco for the questions.

If you have to be any object at all, how?
# I don’t know…transform, I suppose.

What would you do if someone showed up to give you a new sports car?
# I’ll accept the keys if and only if the sports car in question is either a Ford GT, a Mercedes CLK-GTM, or a Jaguar XJ220. And also if that someone gave me money for fuel.

Would you want a bikini model for a wife?

# Only if I loved her for any reason other than her beautifully crafted body.

What is society?

# Society is…err..ask a sociologist.

Smoking, drugs, or alcohol?

# Neither of the three. But if I have to choose among them…it would be booze…

If someone offered you any amount of money for one night of hardcore BDSM with any number of people, would you?

# No way…I don’t want to wake up next morning aching and breaking.

How about marrying a librarian?

# If she’s pretty and has a pleasing personality, and both of us care and enjoy each other’s company, why not?

Trap or lure?

# Trap? Because I want to be one who catches people? (Unclear!)

What does black say to you?

# Simplicity and beauty…and also a bit of sadness…

If you woke up to find yourself on the floor in an empty room , clothes gone, back just a bit sore and a vibrator not three inches from your mouth, what would you do first?

# I’ll say to myself, “What the heck just happened?”